Slow Motion.

And before I could even try to stop myself,
There it was,
Pictured in my mind,
An image,
Unlike any other,
I had imagined more than just my near future,
I had gone beyond to a place I had never been,
My imagination played out the image,
Constructing little young faces in my mind,
My breath stopped for awhile,
As I watched my imagination,
And my imagination stared right back into my dark brown eyes.

It was beautiful,
Absolutely beautiful.

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Tis the season to be jolly.

Because I will not be free to do this on the day itself, here's an early wish.

Merry Christmas all! :)

p.s.: photos from tumblr
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Like Magic.

There is an unexplainable beauty in the realisation between two people that they both want the exact same thing, the realisation that they in fact, share the very same dream.


p.s.: photo from beautyineverything.

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When stars fall from the sky.

I heard slow, heavy footsteps walking towards my back. The footsteps were uneven, like a person dancing without rhythm. I sat with my back hunched over looking at the tiled floor in front of me.

"What took you so long?" I asked disinterested.

"Oh you know me. I like to wait for the perfect moment" A voice said slyly. I could hear it smirking to itself.

"Perfect moment huh. Well, you hit the jackpot this time round."

"Indeed, I have. I thought I'd come in the first week or so, but it became more interesting and so I waited," I could hear it smiling proudly to itself. The footsteps stopped as I felt its presence right behind me.

I glared ahead even though I knew it could not see my emotions.

"I've gotten in so deep. I wasn't expecting this. And you, you decide to come now?" I whirled around, got up and came face to face with my insecurities.

"You knew sooner or later I would be here. You know why I'm here. And you know exactly what you should do. You just have to make the choice." I glared even harder at the face of my insecurities. "I'll leave you to your pondering. But let me remind you again that one of those choices would be no where near a smooth ride."

"Neither of them are," I said, looking away. It walked away into the darkness, grinning slyly all the while. I dropped onto the ground and leaned against the wall, closing my eyes in hope of finding solace.

I heard footsteps again. But they were different. They were lighter, quicker and every step followed a rhythm.

"You're too late," I said in a tone of annoyance. I felt a warm figure kneel down and enclose me.

"No my dear, I am right on time," a sweet sounding voice says. I felt warm arms wrap themselves around me and I opened my eyes to meet the eyes of my heart. It smiles knowingly and strokes my head as I shut my eyes again and lean into the embrace. "Everything will be okay. I promise."

I did not say anything. My insecurities came at the most perfect time. And I wished that following my heart alone would be enough. But this time, I wasn't so sure it would be enough.

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Letters and Love notes.

Summer 10/11 Goals

1. Go to the gym daily and get fit. By fit I do not mean that I need to lose weight because that would just be ridiculous but by fit I mean that I need to desperately gain some sort of stamina cos as of now, I have close to nil :/
2. Bake more challenging things, somehow, and more chocolate desserts of course :D.
3. Spend quality time with my msian besties.
4. Go pick up something new, somehow.
5. Figure out for real what I want to major in for commerce.
   

And there's my basic bucket list for the hols. There are a couple more but they are best kept to myself :)

Mini mike chang!!! :D

And I'll be just fine
If you just stay here for a while
And I'll be okay
If you just stay with me

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Peaches.

One of the greatest friendships are the ones that you can just get right into despite not seeing or speaking to each other for such a long period of time and still feel like nothing has changed.

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Now I'm feelin' so fly.

Mini Glee members! Shoo cute! but quinn's missing.

10 months later and I have forgotten how to pack. Well, not really but I have no idea where to put this and that considering I have a lot of last minute things to buy and pack. And I don't feel like I'm flying in a week. This feeling is so strange its just weird.

But anyhow, I am feelin' so fly,
Like a G6!

See y'all on malaysian so-il. :)

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Smoke and Mirrors.

Sometimes, the past hurts.
Sometimes, the past warms.
Sometimes, the past creates smiles.
Sometimes, the past triggers tears in your eyes.
Sometimes, the past makes you laugh out loud.
Sometimes, the past angers.
Sometimes, the past reasons.
Sometimes, the past makes you feel relief.
Sometimes, the past makes you regret.
Sometimes, the past gathers the worst in you.
And sometimes, the past creates the best in you.

There are things in our past we should accept, others we are still trying to, some we cannot, and few we have accepted. Right now, I just wish that people would stop reminding me of my past. Because I have accepted mine, and I don't deny it. I once was, but I am not anymore. You cannot judge when you don't know the whole truth. It just gets really annoying and difficult to smile patiently while I get teased about my past flaws, again and again.

And because sometimes, all we really want to do, is forget that the past happened, and move on with life. We are not our past. We are our present. And we always have a choice of who we ultimately become.

I chose mine and I fought hard through it. With God's help, I let go. There's still bits of it in me, but for the most part, I am not her anymore and I have learnt and I have grown. I am naturally deep and sentimental, and I have a thing with words and significant moments. And that, will always be me.

Because the past is past, and although we cannot relive it differently, we can always use it to create the best parts of who we are today.

P.S.: one more day of studying baby! :D

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And I left my heart with you.

Things I want to do when I go back to Malaysia:

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Too exhausted to think. No time to think at all, really. 14 hour study days = brain drained. I've got to do better, because I know I can. Three weeks and I'm done for the year-er! All I know is that I am so hitting the beach when I finish because weather forecast says that rain chance for the rest of the month is low! :D plus I need a healthy glowing tan. Desperately.

Now excuse me while I go hide under my books for awhile.

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Hope of all Hearts.

I felt a hand on my shoulder and turned around, not thinking who it may be. A woman with blond short hair and spectacles looked at me and asked gently, "Do you want to go down?". My first instinct was to shake my head and as I did, I noticed she held a book in her hands, the ones that the church gave to new Christians. "Nah, I'm alright," I said, for I had truly not felt the need inside me to walk down. I turned back to face the stage and the pastor was still speaking, encouraging others. All of a sudden I felt a warm embrace blanket me like the warmth of the sun, and I stood there clutching my arms. I could feel my insides glowing with heat and I looked up to my left and heard my friend ask, "Did you make a new decision?". I swallowed hard and nodded slowly, unsure of what to do. "Can you come with me?", I asked her. She smiled and took my hand as we walked together down the flight of steps that led to the bottom of the stage where a crowd of people were already gathered. I had done this before, once as a kid, and once as a teenager. And now here I was again, only I was a young adult. I had not foreseen this day because I was still at crossroads and I knew I would not choose until either roads pulled me into them instead of me stepping into them. It wasn't a choice that I could just get on with because of the way I had lived for 4 years. I was fearful and unsure of what I wanted next. But God has a way of making things happen for a reason. And that morning, little did I know what He had planned for me. I made things right again in my faith, there was no use running away anymore. I did make one of the choices on my own after all and the rest, He took it from there. Four years is a long time. It has managed to drain me of all my knowledge that I learnt for 15 years. But its okay.

God has a funny way of paving things and in how He makes things happen. But I have faith in Him in what he is about to do in my life. I may have to start all over again and walk this road differently. But with Him, I'll be more than fine. For I now truly know, that Angels do exist.

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The Only Exception.

Everyone's left and spring break is over leaving me with awful sleep deprivation. Finals in 3 weeks, first exam (though minor) is in exactly 2 weeks. I end on the 9th which is super except I have to rush through studying my first 3 exams :/ You obviously can't have everything. Another thing is that november = most number of birthdays. *groans and glares at november babies. And the thing is that everyone knows nov is an exam month so their having early birthday celebrations which isn't really ideal either. *note to future self, dont get pregnant 9 months before nov. LOL

I had a poem in my head but its disappeared now. Daylight savings started again which means more sun and no more gloomy days :)

I've to go get beyond 'started' on my last major assignment now cause its worth 50% and I have barely began. I won't be around here or online much till finals are over and done. Facebook has gone boring anyways so I don't bother. One and a half weeks of barely touching my laptop has made me realise how much I don't actually need it. But then again, my life is not always as exciting and on-the-go.

And songs from Glee are now stuck in my head. Like that beginning part of Toxic. *sings tune in head again and again. Damnit.

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We're gonna start by drinking old cheap bottles of wine.

Things to do this week:

Monday: Ruby's photoshoot & Group presentation meet up & more research
Tuesday: Do wed hw & prepare for presentation & vacuum apt
Wednesday: Class til 6 & group presentation & Glee at 7.30 ;D
Thursday: Await the arrival of special people at 3am
Friday: Visit Geelong
Saturday: (Forced to go) clubbing

I didn't make macaroons after all cos there was so much dessert and we only finished kelly's cake today and only because 4 other guys ate it. Will attempt if I have time sometime soon although I highly doubt it because sho many people are coming for my hols and I have a 50% weighted assignment due after hols. Not to mention my exams officially begin on the 28th of oct and end on 9th nov. >< But these are awesome and special people coming so I'm not complaining :D Hees, so cannot wait. I'll try to be back soon but probably be updating tumblr more than this. Then again, I'll be out a lot in the next coming weeks so I'll be staying away from the laptop screen (which is also a very good thing for my poor eyes).

Anyways, miss me! :) <3

Take me home tonight.

Things to do this week -

Monday: Pre-tuesday plans, do advanced research and study for tuesday & wednesday.
Tuesday: A secret for now :)
Wednesday: Chaddy VIP sales
Thursday: Urban life
Friday: Make macaroons.
Saturday: Mooncake & lantern festival.

Hope everything goes amazingly well. :)

And hope you have an amazing week too! :D

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The final straw.

We stood at a fair distance from each other. The sun was just about to set and the sky was a tone of pure orange mist. You got out of your car while I stayed where I was at the side of the road. We looked at each other, expressions unclear. I reached out my hand for you to take. And in that second, time slowed to a hundredth of a second. You were too far away to see into your eyes clearly, but I saw, in that second, your uncertainty, your worry, your fear, your doubt. And at the same time, I could see your belief, your glittering hope, your subtle affection, your yearning, your desire, your heart. In that single second, I saw in your eyes, your love. And in that single second of hesitation, life changed.

Now all I have left is the what if.

Oh my darling, why did you not take my hand?

Author's note: Photo from tumblr.

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And thats a one, two, a one two three go.

Butterflies at my doorstep

Couldn't resist. :P :D

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In glee for Glee.

For all the Gleek fans who read my blog. Which I would have no idea of but oh well.

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A thousand feet per second.

Can Spring freaking come already?! Whats with all the rain and hail? :(

Been boggled down with so much work. And my eyesight is failing me lately but I'm still making it worse by staring at this stupid screen anyway. *rolls eyes to self . I think second halfs of the year are always the busiest and at least at the same time fun too! :D

Shoo many birthdays and whatnots happening. Dum di dum. Themes and all too! Hmm..

Too many sales and $5 items catching my eye :/ Why oh why did I become so much more feminine. *looks to self

Anyways, can't wait for Spring! :D


it's you and it's me and that's all we'll ever need
and yah we'll tear up the streets and we'll dance until we bleed
and then we'll sleep when we're dead cause we'll take over this town
and paint it 9 shades of red getting down is what we're up to tonight


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Six Billion and One.

You're my perfect little secret
You make me warm and fuzzy on the inside
Bright and glowing on the outside
My eyes yearn for a glimpse of you
My ears crave for your silent whispers
You're the only feeling I'm sure of
For each day it is you I think of
You block my blinding darkness
And confuse my dark thoughts with happiness
The heat from your heart
Surrounds me like the heat of the sun
Yet all these words are void of meaning
The moment I look into your eyes
There is nothing more I want than for you to say
Those three words as we meet under the dusk of day.

You're my perfect little secret
And thats the simple truth I want to say.



P.S.: took 2 hours for me to be satisfied with this. Inspired by Snow Patrol's Perfect Little Secret.

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The way we lie.

I'm not two-faced, I'm like three faces all at once. :S

sigh, how did this happen. It sickens me.

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Spanish lullabies.

Have you ever been with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever?

Been really uninspired to write but I'm working on that. Meanwhile, you should go find your person. :)

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Mart 130.

Mart 130 Brunch at Tram (stop) 130, geddit, geddit? :P

Didn't get other pictures cause they weren't near me and everyone was hungry.

Still, I miss malaysian food so much right now, I'd trade places. Anyone, anyone? You can do my assignments while you're at it. :D Its puasa time soon too! :( I've made up my mind that when I go home, I'll eat as much as I want & what I want & because I am so free in dear ol' ipoh, I will go to the gym everyday as compensation. Hoho, I know its a brilliant idea. And I will also find a way to sneak back msian sauces because I rarely get checked anyway :D Friend got me maggi sauces from msia but their mostly to do with fish or prawn and they dont have the kind of fish we use for msian food here. Must definitely try to sneak back belacan & sambal. Ho ho ho. And then I will be a happy msian next year! :DDD

My allowance for this month is like negative already, although technically its not because I used it on not-counted-as-allowance things. Get a job, get a job, get a job! sighhh, yes, will do. =/

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Nineteenth.

I made a really long blog post for my 18th last year and have also reflected on most of my 18th year, so this year I'm going to keep it short and sweet, or somewhat.

I made a wish earlier this year that I knew was impossible to come true, at least for the time being. But what made my day was that my only other single wish for the day came true, not to mention no one knew about it and it came quite early too. :)

As young as I still am, I think everyone feels that when you pass the age of 18, everything seems a lot more older and you feel so much older too, despite being still very young. I want to do so much with my life that I am not content. This year, I will strive, and I will strive hard.

The following are ancient pictures of a very young and cute (:P) me. :D

Clearly I had awesome posing skills since young.

This was my fav doll until I left it in a hotel in kl one time. :( I wish my hair was still that awesome. Those were the days where I could still where a hairband and look cute in it. lol

Picking apples in Canada. Kim, Kelly and I all have the same picture with the exact same pose. ><

Secret birthday dinner tonight. Hees, I am indeed awesome. 19 and awesome. Now, how many of you can say that?! :P

P.S.: the last one was a rethorical question. do NOT answer.

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Love, Save the Empty.

Friendship is doing random things together.

I've found the secret of what binds me tightly to my bestest friends. I do wonder what binds them to me, though.

& I've also found my once unknown ingredient for pasta sauces :D turns out it was in my face all along.

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The silent drops of salty water.

One email, thats all it took. I guess they were right and I've been so wrong. Mothers do make the world a much more amazing place.

So homesick right now. Although I'm not homesick per se.

Also so very stuck right now. Not stuck at crossroads though, more like stuck in my own little thoughtful world. Really, I'm just messing up my own brain.

Thank You God for making my friends appear when I least expect them to be there for me. Truly, thank You God. Even though its only via the virtual when their really miles away from me.

I.so.need.to.be.hugged.right.now. :'(

On another note, have I mentioned how rock & alternative rock genre songs really do rock my soul?!! I'm not a massive fan of any particular band but lyrics in alternative rock songs are really deep and sentimental and they really get to me. And well, if you know me then you know why. ;))

Okay, feeling so much better now. Gonna get more exciting, confusing, even more confusing, awkward, annoying, worrying night dreams now. Like honestly, I dont know what to make of them anymore.


All the best DJs are saving
Their slowest song for last
When the dance is through
Its me and you


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These Mysteries.

Have you ever thought what things would be like if we had no internet? Say, everything else was as advanced as it is now, except there was no internet. What would we really be like? With no facebook, no msn, no email, no blogs. In short really, you wouldn't know a lot of what was going on on the other side of the world, would you? The only way you could find out about someone was if you really wanted to be such a busybody and snoop around. There would be actual stalkers instead of accidental stalkers who'd go, "puhleeze I don't stalk you, you came up on my news feed!".

Instead of instant excess into someone else's life, you'd have to actually put in the effort to send hand written letters if you actually wanted to keep in touch with someone.


I guess the real point of this post is that I miss the old way of sending letters. Call me traditional but letters were hard evidence of written, expressed words. There was much more sentimental value in receiving a piece of paper (or papers) that someone took the effort and time to write for you. Of course if it was for not so nice reasons though, then that someone really wanted you to know that too.
As far as my memory goes, I haven't hand written a letter in two years. I don't think I've received one in 4 years. But its not just letters, cards are pretty awesome too. I've always received one for my birthday cause my Godma in vancouver always sends me a handmade one weeks before my birthday, without fail.

I remember back in ipoh, the place we put our letters was right at the entrance door. So sometimes when I came home, I'd look to see if there was anything for me. Now, all my letters are either bills or junk mail. =/ How nice would it be if we had mailboxes like these in msia?! ^^^

A lot of my 'letters' are now in soft copy. Which is sort of a good thing, seeing that I can type, backspace, and then type again, and 'delete' it whenever I want. But I miss the old traditional handwritten letters. I miss that feeling of holding a piece of paper and re-reading the words over and over again. Sometimes I really wonder what life would be like without the internet. Friendships would have a whole other meaning wouldn't they. The world would be so much further apart from each other. And we'd value things much more than we do now. Just think, how different would life be?


& I really do miss home and the people. :(


P.S.: all photos from weheartit.tumblr.com

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Much more than Empty conversations.

C a n t b l o g a n y m o r e . : ( H a v e t o g o g e t i n s p i r e d a s s o o n as e x a m s a r e d o n e.

shorry but I have a writer's block now and I cant find anything suitable. On another note, cant wait to go crazy after this one last paper! :D

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If you wanted the sky I would write across the sky in letters.

What do we watch for 3 months now? =(((

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Oh Hi winter.

Har har. I can do the split again! *jumps around the room singing to self

Time to kick exams again.
ZOMG first sem of uni is over! Wow that was real quick wasnt it. Uh huh, mmhmm. I mean its now what, June? OH WHAT?! ITS JUNE?! *runs away screaminggg

ha ha, but no, really. Its June. So how's your year been?


p.s.: actually stole the first photo off someone's fb. lol and no u probably dont want to know this but it only Looks like I have boobies in the second photo. hehh.

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Untitled.

I'm looking at him, staring actually without realising.
"You know that movie I told you about?"
"Yea.."
"I have it here", he says holding up the cover, "want to watch it now?", he gestures towards the huge flat LCD screen in front of us. I looked over at the other few people that were here who were all doing something else. All except you. You were staring at me intently and I wish you weren't.
"Sure, why not", I shrugged my shoulders and smiled. He smiled back and walked away to put the cd in.
I was in his house, or at least I think it was his house.
I had never been here before but I liked it instantly.
It was spacious and yet cozy in a way. The sort of place you'd want to sit down and hang out in with a group of friends.
I could see you walking towards me from the corner of my eye.
"Hey", you say casually but your eyes said something else.
Unfortunately, I didn't have time to ask.


Guess I really should put a book and pen next to my bed.

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The taste of desire.

*stares at screen with wide eyes. Mmmmmmmmmm. Budget trip to Europe anyone? (I'd say backpack but I'm not sure I can live on a backpack) I'll contact you in approximately 3 or 4 years time. ;D

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The melody my heart makes.

I sat down hard on the golden sand, the millions of uncountable grain of sand poking the skin of my bum and legs. I lengthened out my arms and wrapped them around my knees, hugging myself to keep warm from the chilly sea breeze. I was barely clothed in a sheer white blouse and shorts and the breeze was getting stronger as night began to fall. I heard hurried footsteps nearing behind me. I knew who it was but I chose to ignore it, letting out a sigh and closing my eyes, listening to the rumble of the tidal waves, rushing in and out against the sand. I felt a shadow being cast over me, “look, I know how mad you are and you have every right to, but Shauna, you cannot let him leave.” I clenched hard on my jaw, fighting back the tears already starting to gather. He kneeled down and tucked a strand of my wavy hair behind my ear, kneeling close beside me. “You know you’ll never stop regretting it if you let him go.” I turned to look at him at once, “He’s made his choice, “ I said firmly, “and I can’t promise him anything. So, what else can I do? I can’t stop him, I don’t have the right to..” I stared into the dark blue waters that were slowly chasing higher grounds. The tide was coming in. He touched my arm gently, “You know you lo...” he took a deep frustrated breath, “...you know! I know that and heck, I don’t just know it.” He whirled around and held my upper arms firmly but gently, “I see it in your eyes whenever he’s around. The way you look at him, the way he looks back. The way you behave around each other, it’s subtle but it’s clearly different in an affectionate way. It’s not hard to feel the passion between the both of you and heck, I’m just a bystander. So don’t you dare deny it! You know as well as I do that what you feel for him is enough reason.” I opened my mouth to argue back but the words in my mind became dust as I searched his eyes. He was right. I couldn’t deny it anymore, he was my best friend and any lie I told him, he knew better. I looked down at my hands as he reached out and hugged me like he always did when he knew I wouldn’t talk. “Three hours. He leaves at 9. Come on, I’ll drive you there.” I got up and walked hurriedly beside him. I paused and glanced at the sky that was a beautiful dark orange. A split second later, I watched as the orange sky drowned into the navy blue sea, leaving an empty, cloudless dark blue sky, so still, so breathtaking, and in that moment I knew there was nothing else so peaceful.


P.S.: like i said, i dont know why the soapiness.
P.P.S.: i was going to upload a photo with this, but cos I'm a reader, I'd like to think that you too, would prefer to use your own imagination. ;)

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Can we wish on airplanes?.

Hi. Not been in the mood to blog because I uh, don't have anything interesting to blog about. Currently working on my behavioural studies major (and I mean MAJOR) essay which in the beginning looked really interesting and I had high hopes but now after reading part of my research its uh, not as what I thought it would be. It is fyi a topic on the liquid life and I doubt any of you would want to discuss it with me. I'm working on getting a HD (thats an A to you) for this cos its the only subject I can get one, so I've to get back to this and get like 6 more references. I already have 7 books at my disposal. Mmhmm thats 13 references in total.

I'll be posting another short story after this post to uh, keep you somewhat entertained. Wrote it during my superdiduper stressed up week when I stayed away from the internet and could only seek destress through 'writing'. heh. Anyway I know it'll sound really soapy and emo, I really dont know why it got so soapy.

I need to plan my midyear holidays. Cheap suggestions?

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The one moment that makes everything worth it.

January has issues with her mother, February is always talking about things he wants to do while March does them, April eats sweets and May pays for them, June is the oldest but not the wisest and July always has an opinion on everything. August never stops trying do the right thing, even if he doesn't always know what that is. September once saw something so sad, she never stopped crying. October holds the lift for anyone, vice-presidents and street-sweepers alike (for his memory, not for theirs) and November makes fun of him for this. December is tired but always hopeful. He has never once stopped believing.

Monday's obviously a bastard, quite literally as dad can't remember what or who he was doing. Tuesday's temperamental but ok as long as you stay on her good side. Wednesday doesn't say much and Thursday sometimes hums just to break the silence. They're in love. Friday's always wasted and she and Saturday hold each other tightly until their delirium fades.

But Sunday, Sunday knows she's the end. But she closes her eyes, and she pretends with all the strength in her tiny heart that really, she's the dawn.

- I Wrote This For You

Such a cute post about time yet so quite true, no? Its funny how we always think of Sunday likes its the end of the week when really, its the beginning. I miss Decembers & Julys.

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The way the darkness hits.

No really, just go ahead and break my heart already will you.

Its nights like these where loneliness slowly finds its way to creep back in and destroy everything I had put on my front. Its nights like these that I back away into my little corner and hide away so you don't witness my true emotions. Its nights like these where my strength is pushed back and all the weakness in me leaks out. Its nights like these where its so easy to just forget every little thing that happened, and instead allow the devil himself to pull at my strings and twist my insides, so twisted that I become someone far from who I am.

Its nights like these where the loneliness hits, and I'm reminded of everything I fear.
And that all I really want, is to be hours away from here.


ithurts.

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The way you move.

Love this video. Cracked me up so hard the sides of my mouth ached within 3secs. Especially like the turtle and the slug. HAHA

The Silent Photograph.

You should have seen
The way he looked at me, with those soften eyes
So caring, so gentle, so full of affection.
He gently stroked my cheek, cupped my face into his hand and pulled me into a kiss.
I could taste nothing but mutual understanding. The kind you just know that you both knew. He pulled me into a hug and rested my head against his chest. I could feel the warmth of his skin from his bare back, my hands cool against his body heat. But I was still numb. I thought of nothing, not where I was, what I was doing nor that I was with him. He let go of me gently without looking and walked away, ignorant of my feelings. I stood there while he left the room for a brief moment. I looked around and saw nothing until my eyes came across a glint of something familiar. I glided across the dark wooden floors, unconscious of what I was really doing. I bent down on to my knees to pick up the very thing that had caught my eye. I held out my hand and took the slightly faded photograph, gently blowing away the tiny fragments of dust that covered it. I immediately recognised the few faces, all beaming from ear to ear back at me. I smiled to myself, so absorbed in this rush of nostalgia that I did not notice his shadow over me. He bent down and wrapped his arms around me, pressing his cheek tenderly against mine. “Brings back a lot huh.” he said with a beam, tilting his head to meet my eyes.

And you should have seen
The way he looked at me, with those soften eyes
So caring, so gentle, so full of affection.
As for what I felt,
Ah, you have to be me to know.


P.S.: inspired fiction, done to de-stress

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Say whud?.

Too happy to blog. Be back soon.


Right. So I was suppose to post this four days ago. Well, now I'm just going to be too busy to blog. *whines
Just got dejavu. Sigh, whatever, I think its the dead brain signals making everything all funny. So exhausted right now. My bad, my bad. Definitely my bad.

Oh man, I really want to blog more but I swear my brain is going all fuzzy even though my eyes are still wide awake. Better leave before things get insane. Someone's gonna get a lil hurt tonight *in russell peter accent. Yea, see what I mean. TA.

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Deb a deb deb.

Today, you're a Princess.

Just today though. =P

HAHAHA remember this?? we were sooo cute then. =P

Happy 18th deb! I don't want to say so much here cause you'll know what I really have to say, hopefully soon-ish (no thats not a pun!). ;D

I miss youuuuuu! In fact come to think of it, you may actually be my longest friend! *thinks hard

Despite the fact that you wont see me in another at least, 7 months yet, have an amazing year ahead kays although I know me being there would make your life like times 1000 more awesome =P (jeremy shutup) I'll be back before you know it with timtams and whatever I can afford in hand. =)

Love youuu!

<3

Its hidden in the Eyes.

Hi.

I think I should finally say something about uni. Not like there's really much for me to say. But sokay, since I'm in a pretty awesome mood now, I'll tell you a thing or two.

First the bad. MY uni for one thing, is almost an hour away by public transport and I have to go there 4 days a week, not to mention there's this one day where there's a freaking 8am lecture that goes for 2 hours and its the only freaking thing I have for that day. Sad I know. My contact hours are actually only 12.5 which happens to be a good thing BUT the timetable had sucky choices so I couldn't cramp my timetable and instead am stuck with a spread out timetable that I spend the same time in uni as I do travelling. sigh, its okay, I'm content with my hole in the wall.

The good is that my friends have improved from being able to count them with less than one hand to, well, one hand and a few fingers. haha awesome I know. Human behaviour is my most favourite subject although I think I do the least work on it cause it has so much reading and I focus all my attention on the commerce subjects that I am fortunately slowly starting to understand. The tutes for human behaviour are basically discussion and there's this really intense debate always going on and the topic always wanders off to death. Uh huh, awesome I know. Oh oh and thee most cool thing about behavioural studies is that we have no midyear exam! Woohoo. One less subject to study forr.

So basically thats uni in my view in a nutshell, really. I was going to rant about something but now I've forgotten.

Oh! I think it was how I have short term memory loss. Yeas that must so be it. Oh and have I mentioned how much I like to hurt myself? Like somehow, I self-inflict physical pain? Mmhmm.

I think I may be starting to stop hating cooking after all and get over my paranoia. *cough. I'm gonna bake over the easter break. Did I mention I like the threadmill too? Mmhmm, I think I may actually like it.

Kay, this is so not me. Deb would be so proud. Ta.

<3