You have no idea.

Stupid deed of the day: I left my locker keys in my locker after ditching everything into my locker. wth right. I blame it on not wanting to go to school so early. =P the girls had a good poke at me.

Today, I also totally forgot to go to my meeting to discuss my business sac with the business teacher during lunch, and forgot my career interview with the careers teacher during study. But at least I remembered about the career interview 20 mins later and had it. =P

Yes, this was my oh so forgetful and blur day. =/

Guess what I found:

Polaroids =) I like how the background makes this whole picture more vintage like...I think. You can ignore my face. Its the colour scheme and background I like. =D

Oh and if anyone happens to visit my house *cough* deb *cough*, do take a peek at my family potrait album and take pictures of it for me. okay?... =D

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And the view is getting better here, with you by my side.

There are a number of things I want to let out, but it'll only end up getting all emo and shit. *takes a deep breath* shall stay un-emo...



Or attempt to.

I feel like taking a gap year. Actually, if I could, I would. But. no1 I dont have money to travel as I have vowed to attempt travelling on my own money when I eventually get there. no2 If I do somehow insanely get the money, my parents will not allow me to go on my own or even with friends or they will say I am not capable of travelling alone(too blur apparently, will get lost in country, etc.). no3 If no1 and 2 works out, I have no travel buddy(s) because I'm sure everyone wants to study first. no4 In the first place, if I somehow achieve my 91 enter and get in to MelbU, I should not waste my brain power and take a one year break, instead I should focus on my absurd goal of completing uni before I attempt my next goal.

That said, I need to be more patient to feed off my hunger and thirst to travel.

I'm beginning to learn something new everyday. Almost. The thing about the world is that no one wants to admit that they are wrong, no one wants to admit that they ought to listen more, no one wants to admit that it is not more time that they really need but to make the best of every minute they have, no one wants to admit that they are egoistic in some way, no one wants to admit that they made their mistake, no one wants to admit that it is much easier to do something bad than to do something good.

It only takes a hundredth of a second to spill an insult, and yet it takes forever to say a perfectly honest compliment. No?

I wish I had the confidence and courage in me to say the things I want to say. To tell it directly to the people who I want to say it to. A couple of thankyous, a couple of sorrys. Even for those tiny little things.

There is a part of me that believes perhaps I have finally found that One thing that God has planted specially in me, after all these years of looking. But I cannot be sure. I am in fact, doubtful. But I have faith. Someday. One day.

Photograph note: taken a year ago.

Author's note: I am in no way saying that I do not apply to all of the above.

PS: Slumdog Millionaire's pretty good.

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With every passing day.

Its been a month since goodbye,
A single month since I uttered those words to you,
One month ago when I was last in your arms,
Clinging on as the tears rolled down,
Watched you watch me,
Looking into your deep eyes of pure truthfulness,
Planted one last kiss of bliss,
Lingering inches away from your handsome face,
Held you in my soothing arms of embrace,
Holding on tight with every hope for a little more time,
Wished on every wish I had for the impossible,
Well guess what?
The impossible's happening.

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Now we both know.

I walked into the lounge room, greeted the supervisor, walked around the bend and stared at the packages on the corner table where the usual mail was. Not expecting anything, I peered at the top one and found this. ^^^

I held it up not believing it, nope, wasnt blind.

I walked quickly into the room, place the package down and plop my books on the desk. Changed quickly, hung up the uniform, threw the dirty socks into the laundry basket, and finally, I sat on my bed holding the package. I opened the top, put my hand in and brought out something black, something white, and something colourful. The first thing I saw turned out to be Australian immigration saying that nothing was taken or quarantine, blah blah blah, right, threw it aside. "Please read", the white one read. I opened it slowly and my eyes did the reading in agitation. I placed the white piece of paper down and held up the black booklet and opened it, knowing that you were the last person to lay hands on it. The words soaked in, even if it wasnt the first time I had read them, they pushed deep into my mnd. I turned to the last page and for every word that was written, I found myself glowing deep inside.

I know love, I know. =)

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It must be True.

Happy Valentine's Day! =)

I miss looking at you,

I miss your various expressions,

I miss analysing your handsome face,

I miss the way you smile cheekily,

I miss your grin,

I miss the way you look at me,

I miss the way you look deeply into my eyes,

I miss you playing with my hair,

I miss the pats on the head,

I miss your strokes,

I miss holding your hand,

I miss your hold on my waist,

I miss your hugs,

I miss your kisses,

I miss your voice,

I miss your laughter,

I miss your hmphs,

I miss your lecturing,

I miss watching you drive,

I miss texting you,

I miss your texts,

I miss messing up your hair,

I miss breathing in your natural scent,

I miss teasing you,

I miss your teases,

I miss having you by my side,

I miss watching you and taking in all of you,

I miss the way you make me feel,

Oh and one last thing my dearest,

I miss You.

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Remember those walls I built? You broke them down.

I found this on my door when I got home from sports this morning. Thanks babe. =) Come to think of it, out of the 5 of us that we started off with, its now down to the both of us. Ironically, we were the ones who used to fight the most. I remember always getting annoyed with you cause you were the youngest amongst us and I was second youngest and according to them, our personalities and character conflicted when brought together. lol. I also remember you telling me how you didnt really know the real me, and thank you for doing so. We screamed, we fought, we scolded, we cried, we apologised, we hugged, we lectured, we had each other's backs, we both have 3 similar tops we bought with each other. I still keep the notes you wrote to me when you were too afraid to talk to me yourself. I'm glad we were roommates for that one term, though honestly, I can't deal with your mess =P I'm sorry for judging you in my first year, always thinking that you were that spoiled rotten kid. I know I dont always understand but thanks for being here and doing those small bits that put a smile on my face with your never ending craziness. =)

Ps. this wasnt supposed to turn out this way but oh wells. going all emo now.

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And its your voice that makes my heartbeat quicken.

and for the next 9 months, these are the only figures I will keep in mind. Oh yes, Kelsey is about to do the impossible. Lets do this, you.

91
91
91
91
91

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The way black is black, and blue is blue.

I swear, I'm all for global warming if it means I dont have to go through this heatwave anymore. ugh. It poured this morning =) and there was thunder too but I was too asleep to hear. I'm all up for the cool change, just no more heatwave, 40 odd degrees, please..

Enough about the heatwave, uni people are coming back soon. Awesome.

I still have a tad too many study periods, but they will be put to good use soon with SACs rushing in.

Spent the whole saturday getting burnt and cooked alive. Shall never be smart and go out all the way into the city when its the hottest day of the summer.

The sky was really pretty a moment ago, unfortunately I took the picture above through my room window which is netted and my camera is also not very nice to me, so therefore the shot didnt turn out well and it did not portray the beauty of the sky. One thing I like about Melbourne weather, no matter how annoying it gets, is that at the end of such brutal weather, when the smell of coming rain feels our nostrils or how the sun comes out of hiding after a day of rain, thats when we smile in appreciation of nature's exquisiteness, the way only God can ever create such beauty.

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I wish they would stop, even if for just One night.

I stood there, you said goodbye,
I watched you leave,
You didnt glance behind or run back to give me a hug or a kiss,
Only a simple "Goodbye" was muttered,
I found myself hating this,
I could feel the misery in me,
You called,
I woke up,
The clock showed 5.05am.

Please stop. One night, just one night is all I ask. PLease

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and You told me, dont go.

I've got a new laptop. Well, okay, the school replaced mine cause the model was giving everyone (but me cause I take care of it nicely =P) problems so they replaced everyone who had bought this model and gave us the model they provided last year's people with. I used to have the acer travelmate 3290 but now I have a small acer travelmate 6293.
out with the old

in with the new =D

its much smaller and compact but it still weighs a bit cause its made out of alloy steel and im still getting used to the keyboard cause its smaller and it gives me problems when I type sometimes.

And it was windows vista but the school made it to plain windows so that its compatible with the school system. ish, but at least its up to date in Microsoft. Other than that, I'll just have to get used to the smaller everything. ;)

Cuz we belong together now
Forever united here somehow
You got a piece of me
And honestly
My life would suck without you

Kelly Clarkson - My life would suck without you

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To the *cough* one and only D.

(the pen didnt want to write happy)

Happy Birthday D!

someone's 18! unbelievable really. =P

How many years has it been since I first knew you? 4? 5? I'm not quite sure when you started going to the same tuition, cause I started on the very first day of form1. But we've come quite a long way haven't we?

I hope this 18th year will be one of your bests and that you will truly have one of the most amazing years of your life. You are after all not 18 forever. =P Here's to wishing you an awesome, exciting eighteenth year of life! ;)

Much hugs coming all the way from 4000 miles southeast. =)

Photograph note: Photo has been taken with permission, Thank you.

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