cause You're worth the wait.

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*jumps up and down*

Its soooo hot here! OMG 40 degrees hot, stupid heat wave had to hit when I got back huh. ARGH its seriously like a furnace in melbourne. Despite the amount of water you drink, you dont even need to constantly run to the toilet cause you're sweating it out so much anyway. GAH

Been smiling constantly from ear to ear and grinning like a mad idiot, I think my friends may start to worry about my sanity. =P

I have two slots of study periods, which means there are days where I only have 2 classes cause I'm only taking 4 subjects. wheeeee!!! =D

I miss home.

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For we are Us, not just anyone, and with you by my side, we'll do this hand in hand, Together.

Sorry, I really do suck.

To you, you, you, you, you, you and you, thanks for making this holiday like possibly THE best ever. =) even if time was little and I may have spent only a day or two with one of you yous, I'm glad we had that one day. This holiday was truly a very different one though it made me realise and opened up my eyes to the things I like about ipoh. How I love the convenience of it all. Or maybe cause I have a so called personal driver. =P It also brought about much change to my emotions and life, but I fully embrace what I have chosen. ;) the memories of these two months will probably be enough to help me survive the next 5.

We are always eager to venture out, to get out of our hometowns and explore the open world. But in the end, really, its our hometown that we find ourselves going back to. Perhaps because of the memories we hold on dearly to, perhaps its the comfort zone that we all miss, or perhaps it is simply because nothing can replace and make us feel at Home. And till we find such an other place that can make us feel this way, home will always be home.

oh and Happy Chinese New Year everyone!

Author's note : sorry am actually in spore right now for a short visit. Will be flying to melbourne today, about 20 hours time.

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and to think that this is the End, but not Quite.

This might be a bit long.

Reminders of what I should tell you on your birthday. (because I will certainly forget)

• why the present


• about the box of the present


• the story of how I got your present


• how thanks to getting your present, I am officially insane

If I were to write a letter to my past self two months ago, part of it would be this. (I found this idea of blogging through other blogs so I shall not say that this idea is original)



Dear Kelsey,

During your first weeks of your summer holidays, you will be bombarded with worries and questions regarding your newest and most intriguing yet surprising update of life. You should know that despite what you firmly believe and think, they are right. Yes they are! do not argue with me! I know better than you now! =P No matter how many times you argue against what they tell you, you will eventually succumb to it. But even so, live and savour each moment as if it is what you believe it to be, and every single memory will be treasured and cherished.

You should know that there is nothing to fear, and you should not for a second doubt. But if you do, just go up to him and ask for a hug, for really, its all you need for reassurance. Also do not hesitate to poke him and insist for more hugs at this stage. Oh and you should also know that patience is virtue. Yes, stop thinking about it, it'll happen sometime when the moment is right.

Oh and one more last thing. I'm not going to tell you cause you'll find out yourself in due time and it'll be most amazing, but I'll give you a hint. Wait for that one last date. That one last night. That one moment. And Kels, don't be afraid. Everything will be alright. I promise. You were right, we've always been right. This chance was one too great to lose and at the same time a risk. But at the end of it all, ah, just you wait. =)

Love,
Kelsey 23/01/2009


Its that time of the year again. Leaving. Back to school. I won't beat around the bush, leaving this time is not easy. Part of me is ecstatic for the things that will happen this year in Victoria. But there's that part where leaving this time means not totally bringing everything back.

Even packing itself has been weird. I've packed in such a blur that I am sure I've missed things. But I cant think anymore and thus, it will have to do for now.

So its a hello wave at Melbourne, and a farewell tear to Ipoh, for now.

"See you later"
The tears no longer flow
And my heart smiles with such warmth
For all the pages of memories that we've added to our story
And all the snapshots of moments that we've captured and added to our album
They do not end here
Not yet, not right now, not here
And till I see you again
A part of me will remain in your heart
Look after it, will you
Till then
See you later.


ps: sorry I didnt write a very good leaving post, blame it on the reluctance of leaving.

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Superhuman

and You were there,
You,
thank You my dearest.

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and I melt all over again.

Have I ever mentioned how uncreative I am. I was never ever good at art. Its in the genes. Fact accepted. Since form1, I didnt need to take art as a subject, thank goodness, because of the choice of music in my school.

But I still enjoy making things with my own two hands from time to time. They say that handmade stuff is always the best to receive and I believe so too. Only thing is I lack creativity and I'm the worse of my sisters. Thus, I have to do the best I can with whatever creativity I have left.

I suck at even simple origami. Its depressing really but I make up for it in paper craft, somewhat. I admire others for what they can achieve to such extent with mere paper. But I comfort myself with the fact that despite my lack of artistry, I am still able to dig into my creative side at times with personal handmade things which I attempt at by giving my best effort ;).

Okay, talking in circles now.

Point is, er, no point actually.

Sorry for the hyper/randomness, I've got two more days.

if only You knew. =)

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the One thing I could never deny.

As my summer break comes to a near close, part of me reflects and looks back upon the past two months, while another part still refuses to, and wants to look only to the last remaining days.

I remember everything as though
It was just yesterday
On one spring's night
How I dreamt that all this would be impossible
On one spring's night
How I braved all odds and asked for the truth
On one spring's night
How you were not quite, but somehow there

And when the season passed,
On one summer's day
How I hugged you for the first time in what seemed like eternity
On one summer's day
How you took my hand and held on to it despite your uncertainty
On one summer's day
How I teared when I told you my biggest anxiety
On one summer's day
How you showed me the world through your eyes of simplicity
On one summer's day
How I could never forget these short but sweet moments in memory
All on a summer's day.

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as tomorrow approaches, lets not think, but just Live.

Sticker photos need to stop being in Japanese!

And no, my hair's still long. =P
Its just that its funnily layered so when I take my long hair and hold it up, it looks like I did a bob cut. Maybe another time. =D

I'm glad I made history in your love life babe. ;)
Love you to bits. =)



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When there's just me and You.

Think happy thoughts Kelsey, come on, think happy yappy thoughts, yes you're getting there, come on, you can do this, dont think, just do, dont let them win, show them you were always right about yourself, come on, think blardy happy thoughts, yes there you go, almost there, dont let your brain wander, let your heart do its engraving but dont allow the brain to become annoying, yes come on, a little bit more, ... , no, no wrong way, wrong way I said, ooi, oh crap.


and they finally flowed.

Sorry for the insanity. Check out the haircut. What do you think?

Author's note : Sorry for the many posts in a week. Blame it on procrastination towards other things. Am not emo, thank you.

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What I like about You.

Warning : Not for the faint hearted/broken hearted/unromantics/people who do not want to read lovey dovey stuff. uh huh, you have been forewarned.



I like the way you kiss me on the cheek just before getting out of the car.
I like the way you pat my head in reassurance.
I like the way you play with my hair, cause I secretly like it when people do. =P
I like the way you hold me close and squeeze me tight, like you're never letting go.
I like how your hugs are always full of comfort and warmth, so soothing that I cannot feel a thing.
I like how you lift me up in your arms and put me back down on your lap, so effortlessly, its as if I'm paper light.
I like the way you look at me, though when I eventually ask What? you answer the same, we end up looking away and I wish I hadn't said a thing.
I like it when you smile and laugh and grin like an idiot, the way you light up instantly and your face shines with pure joy.
I like the way you grab my hand when I dont hold yours first.
I like the way you hug me from behind and encircle your arms around my waist, while lacing my fingers through yours.
I like the way you always smell my hair whenever you hug me, though half the time I dont get why you like it so much.
I like how it was under the bamboo tree on such a perfect morning.
I like how when we argue, you dont just let me win so easily and you argue back with me.
I like how you always vow to not talk to me at night, but you end up doing so anyway. =P
I like how we always blame each other for our lack and deprivation of sleep, though truth is, we both equally share the blame.
I like the way you make me hyper just before bedtime.
I like how each day begins with a good morning and ends with a good night from you.
I like the fact that everyday with you is a significant moment in itself.
I like the way you're not afraid of voicing out your honest opinion, even if I may not agree with it.
I like the way we share stories and our thoughts with each other, how at times it brings out our maturity as we exchange opinions and theories.
I like how you like me for who I am, you're the one person who embraces my originality and individuality.
I like how you tell me the things you like about me, you somehow manage to make me feel like I'm the most special girl in the world.
And most of all,
I like how you're just You. =)

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Thoughts that Count.

I must be out of my mind. But I know its worth it.



You've taught me Patience,
Of all the things I've ever wanted to learn,
I've finally learnt to be patient,
Of all the people,
It turned out to be You.



I got my hair cut, I'm not exactly sure if I like it or not.

The shopping list is getting ticked off pretty rapidly. I am to avoid finishing it next week because of last week before cny havoc.

Its two weeks into the new year, and two weeks later I wouldnt even be here. Gosh

I shall attempt to run around more. I need the appetite.

Photograph note : Photo is totally irrelevant I know, but wth.

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Once upon a Time.

Who knows,
I may be the Cinderella of your dreams,
And you, the Prince Charming of my fairytales,
But lets not wish upon a childhood fantasy,
For right here and now,
You have captivated my heart,
Swept me off my feet, and refused to put me down,
Caught me in your arms, and locked me in your embrace,
Happily ever after may not be our ending,
But its our love story my dearest,
You and Me,
Our very own tale.



Need to get neccesaries and shopping list ticked off. I dont want to pack just yet. So I'm putting it off. =P Getting hair cut again, gah I dont want to let my long hair go. You can bet on it that I will come back complaining, yes put your bets on it.

Photograph note : Dress does not belong to me. I wore it for our family potrait which if you come to my house after a month or two, you would be able to see it all. ;)

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the greater the Love, the greater the Loss.

(Quote by Brad Pitt, believe it or not)

Time is passing, time is quickly disappearing, time is making its presence known, time is almost up to the finite, time waits not for me, time is pushing the barriers and throwing me into panic, time is going going going but not gone.

I have two weeks left.

Two more weeks to see that charming smile, the light in your eyes, the joy in your bright handsome face. To hear that cheerful laughter, the sarcastic teases, the playful hmphs. To feel the comfort in your hugs, the soothing pats on the head, the warmth and adoration in your eyes despite the world around us.




Author's note : may I make this loud and clear, I am NOT emo. Its called the expression of feelings. Thank you very much.

Photograph note : Candid shot, credits to personal photographer, identity shall be kept anonymous for time being. ;)

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Krabi 08

I have finally gotten the Krabi pictures off my dad, well the more suitable ones that is. =P So here's a brief overview. The first hotel that we stayed in for the first 5 nights was the more expensive one, (name cannot be mentioned due to personal reasons) thus our rooms were superb and highly awesome. =D

View of the beach.

One of the two swimming pools. I was watching the attempt of water polo by the hotel GO's and guests and was finally forced into joining cos the team lacked one member and I was put against my brother. lol

Hawt babes. =PWe went kayaking on the 5th day in Mangrove swamps about 45mins away before changing hotels the next day and it was a really fun thing to do as a family cause we had never done so before. the last time was at koh samui where kelly and jordan, kim and I kayaked into the open sea only to almost lose our way because jordan didnt know how to kayak properly and we ended up holding our boats together. We stopped at two caves, one we got out, one we kayaked through. This was supposed to look like an anaconda snake. See the resemblance?On our way back we girls changed partners and decided to race. Mum and kim won...by a little! =P

This was on the boat back from an island we had gone dubbed "one of the worlds' best beaches" but honestly, nothing great or special. All in all, the holiday was great though one whole week of beaches was WOW but it was alright. =)

My tan is already fading, wth.

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Hello blogpost.

I moved here from xanga cause xanga was giving me the shits after what, 5 years? (counting my previous blog) I cannot guarantee how long this will last as I have actually thought of quitting blogging altogether or privating everything cause honestly, I know my readers are few and I blog too personal like. I may or may not quit altogether, but for the meantime, I'll be here. =)

There's nothing much to update about life except that I need to shop. =D

till next time then.

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