The Fall.

I am sorry because I cannot blog about anything other than not so happy things right now because I've reached a point where I cannot fake my feelings anymore. I would say I need time to figure things out but its not really time that I need.


I'm in this new tunnel, one so unfamiliar and fresh to me that I don't know how to deal with it. If you gave me tunnel-of-emo or tunnel-of-studystress or tunnel-of-dontyouunderstandicantstandyou, I'd be feeling better cause I've dealt with them before. But this tunnel? Its sucking out all the life and joy out of me so quietly that I can't stop it. But I can't stay like this because I've recently found someone who's walking in this tunnel with me, someone so close to me that we're holding each other's hands so tightly, afraid for each other. And though I've never really shared tunnels, this time, its given me more strength to fight and to find the light at the end of this tunnel faster than I usually do.

Its been awhile since the edges of my mouth hurt from laughing too much. Deb & Jeremy, can you please teleport yourselves here and get some ice cream on the way so we can laugh so much we cry over nothing? =) It'd be nice if you could drag you-know-who with you too.

I don't need pep talks or people to tell me that everything's going to be okay. What I need, are warm-hearted smiles, lots and lots of hugs, and for you to tell me that you're here for me,even if you're thousands of miles away.

Cause sometimes thats all I need.


<3